Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Ramblings...

So, I am in the mood for blogging, but realize I have nothing really important to say. So forgive me if this blog leaves you bored, but I thought I'd just babble on for a bit.

I've developed an eye twitch. It probably started about a month or two ago. Probably too many late nights, accompanied by stress. Mainly the stress of morning sickness. On top of that, the other day I had about a couple days of heart palpitations. Apparently this is common in pregnancy, and I did have it once or twice briefly when I was pregnant with Alyssa, but never for days. I was starting to get worried, but decided to google it (which, by the way is usually not a good idea, but in this case it was) and discovered that for most people it's harmless. I chalked it up to stress, pregnancy, and eye twitching related. :)

Hmm...What else can I share? Well, my daughter is fifteen months old tomorrow. Boy, she is more of a little girl than a baby now. She is picking up words left, right, and center. We don't even have to repeat them to her anymore, she may have just heard it in passing and will start saying it. As excited as it is, like any parent, it can make you worry. Sam and I generally don't use bad language, so that's pretty safe, but we all say things we don't want our kids picking up, and it is becoming reality how much more careful we need to be. But hearing her saying words such as "peas" (please), "tank oo" (thank you), or "all di" (all done) is a feeling I hope I never forget. Her other favorite word is "Mammee" which refers to her many stuffed lambies.

Oh, and EVERYTHING is an "apple", from an actual apple, to a pumpkin, to my pink shirt. I think we may need to start reviewing our fruits...:)

I never knew being a mom could be such a gift. Alyssa has brought more joy than I could ever imagine. Watching her with her Daddy is just another thing that absolutely melts my heart. Seeing his love for our daughter is absolutely beautiful. When I am away from her I miss her, and can't wait to see her again, even if it's only a few hours. I love to check up on her when she is sleeping, just so I can look at her sleeping peacefully. I am so thankful for all the times I've had with her, and look forward to all the times I will have with her. And I am excited to feel all these things with baby #2.

Sometimes I feel that mothers are portrayed as always being overwhelmed, needing to get out of the house. I know it may be different for mothers with more than one child. But I find that I am well aware if I need to get out with my husband, or with a girlfriend, and I am not afraid to speak up and ask for that. But it's really not cause I'm overwhelmed. I'm not. Alyssa is such a good child, and so much fun. If I feel the need to get out, it's usually because I need some adult company, or some time with my husband. And sometimes, even an hour will do it. But in the meantime, I know Alyssa will be grown up before I know it, and I will have lots of time when she wants to be with her friends and not her mom. She will want her independence. So I am just enjoying this time that she is little, because I am so aware that it is only temporary. I don't think I'll ever look back and say to myself "I didn't have enough 'me' time".

Anyways, that's my post of the day....now I am going to go sneak in and take a peak at Alyssa so peacefully sleeping....

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